There was once a time when a vintage loving fat girl could get some decent vintage clothes for a very nice price. NOT NOW! Who knows what the hell is going on! It's like every fat girl in America has decided that they too need to wear or at least buy vintage clothing particularly my beloved era, the 40's to the 50's. What's going on? I'm very unhappy about it to say the least. The other day, I saw a GREAT vintage peignor set from the early 50's, the auction was ending in a bit so, I bid up to 50 bucks and Sam and I went for a walk. Back in the day, I would be able to snag something like this for like 10 dollars tops so, 50 is really stretching it. I come back, all ready to pay for my item and await my wonderful new gown in the mail when low and behold, not only did I NOT win the auction, the damn thing sold for 150 bucks!!! I just couldn't believe it. It's nuts. Today, I decided to scan ebay, just to see what's being offered and there is a plethora of goodies awaiting my bid, yay! A great, black satin swing coat from 1945 (yummmmm), a BEAUTIFUL dress from the early '40s and a wonderful evening dress from the mid 50's. Here it is, 7 SEVEN days left in the auction and some ridiculous b-----s have already bid these items up over 40 bucks! The '40s dress had 13 bids! What's wrong with these people? The auction has 7 SEVEN days left! Why are they bidding AT ALL? I hate them.
On a better side, I did buy a great '50s silk circle skirt for four dollars and I got that great bag over the weekend for 5. But still, I want that satin coat and I don't want to pay 400 dollars for it.
Eaten Today
Today, I was very hungry
Breakfast
mixed fruit - half a peach, couple of cubes of honey dew melon and some pineapple chunks then, 1 cup of oatmeal with pat of butter, handful of walnuts and brown sugar (yummmmm)
Lunch
Grilled cheese with turkey and a bit of mayo glass of homemade iced tea, watered down
Dinner
half a can of pineapple chunks in natural juice, 6 whole wheat crackers with a bit of peanut butter and two glasses of watered down homemade iced tea
8.09.2006
8.06.2006
I have an interview in the morning. This one is with a school in the Bronx and it will be raining :( not looking forward to that at all. Hung out with my cousin T and her friend J yesterday. It was a very nice day, not at all hot and muggy like it's been lately. We had a good time and I bought some really great items. Picked up a new purse, bracelet, necklace and some hair accessories for less than 10 bucks from a vintage store, very good buys. Since we didn't have a definite plan, we wound up walking from 59th street and 8th avenue to 6th street and 2nd avenue, we had some Indian food, and then walked from 6th street and 2nd to 14th and 8th. I did all of this in flip flops (like an idiot) and so now, my legs are so sore. I don't know how I'm going to get my fat ass up to the Bronx tomorrow but, I have to so...
I went to my family reunion last week in Virginia Beach and I actually had a really good time. I met a bunch of folk I had never met before and they were so educated and talented, so nice to have met them. I'm supposed to be building a family website which I have started and completed some of and, I'm now the newest family historian. It's a very important job and I look forward to it. Other than that, not a whole lot has been going on. My cousin T convinced me to try internet dating again, which I did so I have been meeting a lot of guys that way but, nothing has come out of any of it. A lot of exchanging email, a few phone conversations, not much else than that.
I thought I lost 7 pounds but, when I got on the scale today, I hadn't lost any weight. I haven't gained any either but, I haven't been doing anything that would make me gain weight. My doctor mentioned weight loss surgery to me as an option before and that really isn't something I think I want to do. I'm very healthy, my thyroid doesn't work well but other than that, I don't have any issues, my blood pressure is fine, my bones or joints don't hurt, I don't have any weight related issues, I'm just fat. My stupid tumor even shrunk (yay!) The thing is, I've been fat all of my life and though I'm not totally happy with my body at this size, I love myself. I love my body though it's bigger than it's ever been, I still look cute, I'm just bigger and softer than I normally am. Truthfully, I"m not entirely sure what's going on. I don't eat, I don't lose weight, I eat a bunch of food, nothing really big happens, it's like I"m destined to be fat or something. I walked around 5 miles total yesterday and I was fine during that, I carried on conversation during my walk, it wasn't a leisurly stroll either, so, I'm capable of that. I still practice yoga, not as often as I used to but, I'm okay doing that, I should exercise more but, no one I know exercises as much as they should so it's not like I'm being COMPLETELY slovenly. I'm just regular folk lazy. I don't want to consider surgery as a tool because I just don't want to invite misery into my life where there is none. People who have had this surgery have had ALL kinds of problems and like I said, right now, I hae none, but at the same time, I don't want to be THIS fat. But, I don't want to be thin either, that isn't what I'm supposed to be and I'm okay with that, I think being back in my size 18 is good enough for me, that is where I feel most comfortable. What else should I do? I'm not sure. I've taken the advice of many and added some other foods to my eating but even that, I only do about twice or three times a week. I've taken to drinking iced tea so my body doesn't think I'm starving it and, I'm walking more. I want to get to about 15,000 steps a day. I'm going to give it another month and if I haven't lost anything by then, I don't know what I'm going to do.
Eaten today:
Breakfast:
Mixed fruit (3 strawberries, half a peach a few slices of pineapple a few grapes)
Lunch:
Grilled cheese sandwiches (2, I was being greedy)
Dinner:
ate with The Heavenly One:
white rice(about 1/2 cup), spinach with garlic and 2 beef ribs
throughout day (2 cups of iced tea, maybe 3)
Eaten yesterday:
Breakfast:
iced tea
Lunch:
water, water, and more water (during the walking)
Dinner:
tandoori chicken, shrimp and beef cubes (left about half on the plate) three spoonfuls of rice, one beef samosa, about 1/4 piece of garlic naan, 3/4 small coconut custard, 1 can of sprite and when I came home, 6 cookies
(I was very greedy yesterday)
I went to my family reunion last week in Virginia Beach and I actually had a really good time. I met a bunch of folk I had never met before and they were so educated and talented, so nice to have met them. I'm supposed to be building a family website which I have started and completed some of and, I'm now the newest family historian. It's a very important job and I look forward to it. Other than that, not a whole lot has been going on. My cousin T convinced me to try internet dating again, which I did so I have been meeting a lot of guys that way but, nothing has come out of any of it. A lot of exchanging email, a few phone conversations, not much else than that.
I thought I lost 7 pounds but, when I got on the scale today, I hadn't lost any weight. I haven't gained any either but, I haven't been doing anything that would make me gain weight. My doctor mentioned weight loss surgery to me as an option before and that really isn't something I think I want to do. I'm very healthy, my thyroid doesn't work well but other than that, I don't have any issues, my blood pressure is fine, my bones or joints don't hurt, I don't have any weight related issues, I'm just fat. My stupid tumor even shrunk (yay!) The thing is, I've been fat all of my life and though I'm not totally happy with my body at this size, I love myself. I love my body though it's bigger than it's ever been, I still look cute, I'm just bigger and softer than I normally am. Truthfully, I"m not entirely sure what's going on. I don't eat, I don't lose weight, I eat a bunch of food, nothing really big happens, it's like I"m destined to be fat or something. I walked around 5 miles total yesterday and I was fine during that, I carried on conversation during my walk, it wasn't a leisurly stroll either, so, I'm capable of that. I still practice yoga, not as often as I used to but, I'm okay doing that, I should exercise more but, no one I know exercises as much as they should so it's not like I'm being COMPLETELY slovenly. I'm just regular folk lazy. I don't want to consider surgery as a tool because I just don't want to invite misery into my life where there is none. People who have had this surgery have had ALL kinds of problems and like I said, right now, I hae none, but at the same time, I don't want to be THIS fat. But, I don't want to be thin either, that isn't what I'm supposed to be and I'm okay with that, I think being back in my size 18 is good enough for me, that is where I feel most comfortable. What else should I do? I'm not sure. I've taken the advice of many and added some other foods to my eating but even that, I only do about twice or three times a week. I've taken to drinking iced tea so my body doesn't think I'm starving it and, I'm walking more. I want to get to about 15,000 steps a day. I'm going to give it another month and if I haven't lost anything by then, I don't know what I'm going to do.
Eaten today:
Breakfast:
Mixed fruit (3 strawberries, half a peach a few slices of pineapple a few grapes)
Lunch:
Grilled cheese sandwiches (2, I was being greedy)
Dinner:
ate with The Heavenly One:
white rice(about 1/2 cup), spinach with garlic and 2 beef ribs
throughout day (2 cups of iced tea, maybe 3)
Eaten yesterday:
Breakfast:
iced tea
Lunch:
water, water, and more water (during the walking)
Dinner:
tandoori chicken, shrimp and beef cubes (left about half on the plate) three spoonfuls of rice, one beef samosa, about 1/4 piece of garlic naan, 3/4 small coconut custard, 1 can of sprite and when I came home, 6 cookies
(I was very greedy yesterday)
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