November 1 -

Today is Sam's birthday. My baby stinky boy is four years old today. Happy Birthday Sam! (even though he can't read and never goes on the internet, you know, because he's a dog).

So.....

Weird thing happened this weekend. My sister told me she was envious of me! I really didn't know where that came from so I kind of was like, "oh, okay". She tells me that she and my older sister and brother were kind of jealous because I had more time with my dad and because I had education and advantages they felt they didn't have. Also, she tells me that I seem to really have my life together and that makes them upset. So, what do I say to this? I didn't say anything but then I had to think. My dad had my three older brother and sisters when he was in his mid 20's and had me when he was in his mid 50's. When I came along, he was a lot more comfortable in life. He didn't have to struggle to make ends meet, he had reached many of his financial goals so, he had more time to spend with family. I have no control over that. My dad also sent my older brother and sisters to school but, my oldest sister decided to have a baby, drop out of school, smoke weed and drink liquor. My other sister decided to have two babies and spend time with men who stole from her and beat her ass. My oldest brother decided to drop out of school and take the money my father sent for tuition in order to fund his weed habit and not work. I decided not to do any of those things. So, where does that leave me? I'm not sure if I should continue talking to her/them as I feel kind of weird about the entire situation.

So, I've been dating this guy for about the past month. Previous to actually going out, we've spoken on the phone for like two months. He's okay, we've been taking things very, very, very slow as I nor my heart are in any position to go through the crap I've gone through in the past.

All has been great on the shopping front. I've picked up some great vintage dresses in my size or bigger (altered to fit me of course). I even sewed my first coat! A very nice vintage style swing coat. It came out really well and of course I look super cute in it. With the left over material I made Sam a cute doggie coat.

Thanksgiving will be held at my house this year and I have to assemble a menu and cook for like 10 people. Not a problem but a task. Not much any than any of those things. Life is regular.