7 Whole Days and Not a Word From Me

Not really much has been going on lately. Work is blah, everything else is copacetect (sp?). I've been kind of busy lately, I've been dating, running my mouth on the phone, etc. My doctor called me the other day, she would like me to come in next week because she has come across this drug that may be able to help with my tumors which would be great. I spoke to the father of my child and I think that we will hold off for a bit just to see how things will go. I want to have a child, but not like this. I've always thought of myself as being married, in the big house, etc. before I started pushing out some kids. If nothing can be done to help me, that's fine, I'll just continue with my plans.

So, Q (the older guy with the house in Belize) invited me to go to the Bahamas next weekend. Should I go? I don't know. I've never been to the Bahamas, at the very least, it would be a cool experience. Then I wonder, does he expect us to go as a psuedo couple? Is he expecting me to have sex with him if I go? Truthfully, I think hes cool, but that isn't something I'm looking to get into at this point. I have so much going on with just figuring things out with the baby, I can't entertain the notion of having "a man" or man like person in my life also. The dating here and there is fine, it's fun, there isn't anything serious coming out of it or expected of me.

I also went out with A (really nice guy I wasn't attracted to). He's SO sweet and actually, as an older woman than I was when we first met, I can appreciate him more as a person but, I'm still not attracted to him. He's nice, he's smart, he's cool to hang around but, I have absolutely no attraction to him what so ever. He's just not my "type" I guess.

My job gets very boring at times. I thought I would like the idea of not reallly having to do much work, but it gets irritating. It's like, and I would NEVER say this at work least they take my job away. That school doesn't really need a dean like person. There are a few bad asses here and there, but for the most part, those kids are okay. I kind of walk around the school, I scare kids into running faster to their classes and thats pretty much it. Every once in a while, some doofus acts a fool but that is usually cured with a call home and the taking away of a free period or two.

Sam and I went to the park today. It's starting to get cold here in the city, I had to bundle him up in his little sweater this evening. I guess I'll go scrape together some dinner or call THO to see what she's made.