What's boop? I have no idea, it just came to mind when I wrote it.
So, I'm really looking for another job. If I don't find one, I'll go back to my job of course but, I'm looking, a lot. I would love to just get up and leave NY but admittedly, I'm scared, correction, I'm terrified. Where would I go? What would I do once I got there?
So, I'm officially bored. I havent' been doing much this summer. Went to see the El Greco show at the Met. I need some new hang out partners. Most of the girls I used to hang with are married or coupled up, the others, we just don't have a whole lot in common anymore. I've been shopping a lot. Found a great vintage coat, almost brand new for about a hundred bucks. Got a great day dress, brand new from 1939, it's gorgeous, got two clutch bags from the mid '40s, also very nice and, I got a great dress and jacket set from the mid '40s, on the cheap also brand new! I found another vintage store not too far from my house so, I'm going to step over there within the week, see what's going on.
I was talking to that guy I met at the swing dance last week and in the middle of our conversation, he told me that I had the kind of voice that turned him on. He then asked if I would be offended if he masturbated while I was on the phone with him. Needless to say, I hung up. I told my cousin T who SWORE I was lying. She just can't believe that I meet guys like this but, it's the God's honest truth. It's just, weird, he seemed like a really nice person, I just can't see myself asking someone something like this. The thing is, I'm not sexually forward like that. I mean, I'm no prude, believe me but, when I first meet a person, I'm not overtly sexual, I'm not sure what it is. I really think it has to do with me being a fat woman. I mean, I've always been fat but, I've gained weight within the last year so, I'm more fat than I normally am. I think men must think that fatter women are whores, I don't know. So, I've decided to not date again for a while. I don't know. I know who I am and I don't want someone treating me in such a way. I'm a good person, I'm a good woman. I'm not looking for perfection, but why is it so difficult to find someone decent?
Eaten Today
Breakfast:
banana and 8 strawberries
Lunch:
bowl of mixed fruit
Snack:
glass of milk and 6 cookies which I needed like a whole in the head
Dinner:
8 strawberries, handful of blueberries, 1 banana and 1 large peach
