So...

As predicted by many, myself included, the thing with Mysterious Ex is over. It was mutual though, we are not angry at one another, just knew that things would not work. The last day he was over here, I made dinner (greek salad, veggie pizza and gnocchi with gorgonzola sauce), and while I was heating up the dessert (oversized cinnamon buns), I realized, this isn't going to work. He isn't HIM. Admittedly, this made me a bit sad so, I got in the bed, right while he was here and everything. We spoke a bit then the next day, boom, that's it, we aren't going to try anymore. I just realized that as much as I like/love him, he wasn't ever going to be able to give me what I wanted. It wasn't an idea of me being picky, or demanding or unyielding, it just wasn't for us to be. He wants to be friends but, I am going through the motions of working that out in my head. I am not angry at him but, can I see him as just a friend? Not that I would lust over him or anything but, how would my heart and head react to him? I'm not sure.

So...My new job is SO demanding. Its like, I NEVER have time for lunch. I BARELY have time to pee during the day and the other day, my supervisor asked me to take on an additional site. I really can't do it. I'm not sure if she thinks I'm some kind of super woman, or if she's going to try to milk me until I can't give anymore but, I really can't do it. It honestly is going to be a no, or I quit type of situation too. Case in point, the position that I currently have was held by someone three years ago who had a nervous break down on the job, why? She couldn't handle the pressure. She was replaced by someone who did the job and did it pretty well I might add. Now, I have the position but, in addition to the last person's duties, I am also responsible for the duties of my former position PLUS the new position and she wants me to take on additional duties. It simply isn't possible, it really can't be done, at least not by me. I know when to chip in for the team and when I am being taken advantage of and this to me seems very much as though someone is trying to take advantage of me, something I simply can't allow.

So.. there, as always, is a new guy around. Won't speak too much about it yet because, ya know, shit always goes down. This one is bit differnt though, at least I think so. I'll just have to see.

Also very cool: I went to see Maya Azucena last night!


She performed with Honey LaRochelle at this funky little restaurant in my neighborhood (I don't say this often but, yay! at least slightly to gentrification!). The show was awsome, this is the second time I've gone to see Maya and, she actually came by my table and said hi to me, ( I guess because I clapped when she came in the door) she is super cute (gorgeous really) and very sweet. She and her friend Honey (these girls can sang their asses off, you hear me O-F-F) did a GREAT set of some of their individual songs, then some classics and some of the most awesome freestyles ever! So Yay! I finally got her new CD from her, it was sold out on CD Baby then in the quest for the perfect shoes, coats, bags and redoing my kitchen, I really forgot to pick it up. Check her out!