And again, Mysterious Ex and I are seeing one another. I KNOW I'm crazy with the back and forth thing. I KNOW that I keep saying I have doubts but, we have sincerely been speaking. I truly don't think he is playing games, I just can't see someone going to the lengths to which he is going/has gone to just play games with someone. I've been going through a lot emotionally lately and, he has been so supportive in so many ways. He has really gone above and beyond my expectations of him. I must admit I was and still am surprised.
I will not say that we are a couple but I will say that I depend on him somewhat, I know that I love him, I know that he loves me, its just a matter I think of either acknowledging the situation and parting ways or establishing what I consider to be a real relationship. Through our conversations, we want the same things, but on a different time line. He is a man and as such, he has ample time to have children and do the things he would like to do in life. Me being a woman, a fat woman with fibroids (which have shrunk by the way, woo hoo to healthier living) I am limited in my time for family and child birth. I will be thirty in three months. I've already made the decision to move forward with conception of a child whether or not I am married. I have already decided my future on the chance their isn't a Mr. GoddessNoir in the picture. But, I would like him to be my Mr. GoddessNoir.
Gratuitous and awful picture of Sam
