How I Spent My Saturday Morning

You Are Strawberry Ice Cream

A bit shy and sensitive, you are sweet to the core. You often find yourself on the outside looking in. Insightful and pensive, you really understand how the world works. You are most compatible with chocolate chip ice cream.

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You Are 80% Weird

You're more than quirky, you're downright strange. But you're also strangely compelling, like a cult leader.

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Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

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Your Personality Profile

You are dignified, spiritual, and wise. Always unsatisfied, you constantly try to better yourself. You are also a seeker of knowledge and often buried in books. You tend to be philosophical, looking for the big picture in life. You dream of inner peace for yourself, your friends, and the world. A good friend, you always give of yourself first.

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It's been raining and raining and raining here. It's cold, windy, such a blah week. I went shopping today to cheer myself up. I know I'm not supposed to do that, I know I'm supposed to stick to my budget but, I only bought things on sale, with the exception of this jacket that I ADORED. It was the only one left in my size so I bought it. The rest of the stuff was in clearance so I bought some really great tanks, some new panties and a few new bras. I also got a little lingerie since I'm really girly and like to feel pretty after a great shower before bed. Plus, I'm trying to buy pieces that are cute and will last me through at least the first few months of pregnancy since I really don't like "maternity" clothes and really, really, really don't like maternity clothes made for fat chicks, ewwwww.

I spoke with the father of my child who I actually forgot was such a great guy. It's like whenever we've spoken or hung out, I'm all, FOMC is SO great, why didn't I ever date him? I'm not "liking" him liking him but in my humble opinion, he is a great choice for the father of my child, I think I chose wisely.

I just came back from THO's house. It has been our ritual I guess for a bit of time to hang out together on Friday or Saturday night. It's cool but my mom and I get together and we are like little kids. When I eat alone, I eat things like chicken salad, fish, veggies and rice, I still like to bake but, I've been curtailing my baked goods intake as well as too much munchy, fatty, sugary kind of foods especailly for the baby. THO will tell me, I'm eating salad and fish tonight or, I'm going to have some grilled chicken and veggies, but, when THO and I get together, we start making cheeseburgers, french fries, eating ice cream. It's sick. I don't know what it is. Tonight, we had cheese turkey burgers, waffle fries, soda then for dessert, we had ice cream a (ewwwww) store bought chocolate chip cookies. What's up with that?

I felt a wee bit sad for a wee bit of time tonight. I called my friend C, my and he was out on a date. I was so shocked, he's always complaining about this woman or that one and talking about how he's NEVER going out anymore, which he usually doesn't so I figure, hey, it's raining, let me see what C is up to, and he's on a date. So I called my friend K out in Chicago who's always good for a long Friday night chat since he and his girlfriend broke up and guess what? She's over there. So I ask him, are you two getting back together? and in typical man fashion he answers "nah, it's not like that, you know, we just chillin'", okay. My cousin T had to go to bed early because she has a test in the morning (for a job promotion) and my friend T has a class in the morning so she's in bed. THO was tired, she went to the doctor like 8 this morning and FOMC is going to the Million More Movement (very proud of him for that) tomorrow so I have no one to talk to really. I am by myself which I normally don't mind, I'm not the lonely type, but tonight Ijust feel alone. I guess I could watch a movie or something since I'm not tired at all, Sam and I slept for like 2 hours this afternoon.

Not much else is going on. I'm tired of the rain. Work is fine, Sam and I take a nap everyday after work. Nothing big or significant.

Why am I such a kid?

I'm angry at myself. I do VERY stupid things. Childish and unwarranted. I am better than this. I know that I am but I can't seem to help myself sometimes. I'll be going along just fine and then BAM! I have to do something stupid. Today, I sent out the confessionary mail to my friends just like a play around thing that someone sent me and so I forwarded. It's confessing stuff that I have done while in a relationship or what I really thought about someone I was in a relationship with. One part of the mail was about Mysterious Ex, it's very mean and not very nice at all but hey, it's the truth right? So, I cannot be satisfied with just writing it and sending it to my friends, no, not crazy me, I have to send it to him to. To seem as though I "accidentally" sent it. I mentioned that fact that I'm expecting too. Why do I do this? There is really no reason at all that I should send this, it's just to hurt his feelings and make him feel bad, that's very childish and quite unecesarry. But, I did it anyway. One part of me says fuck it, he's hurt you why can't you do the same? The other part of me knows it isn't right. But the real question is, do I really even care? It's just so stupid.