Could I Have Been Wrong?

Eaten so far today:
Honey Comb (ran out of Frosted Flakes, "Blast!")
Hours on Phone: Less than one, been doing a lot of work in the garden
Resumes: None (it's Sunday)
Exercise: Does three hours of garden work count? I say YES!
Bought: Seed packets from eBay (Have I mentioned lately how I love eBay?)

Well, I spoke to Mysterious Ex again. It seems since I didn't bring up seeing him yesterday he thought I didn't want to see him. He says he asked me "what are WE doing tonight?", I heard, "what are YOU doing tonight?". Anyhoo, since my answer was, "NOTHING", he says he thought I didn't want to see him or have much to do with him, he and I behave in a very silly way, I told him that and he agrees. I guess we will see each other today or some time soon. I don't know why this is so difficult, I care for him, he's cares for me, we just can't seem to get it together.

Is is that we love one another in a way that we don't want to even appear as though we may be trying to hurt the other's feelings? We been through a lot together so I think there is always this need to seem as though we are being aware of one another's feelings. We seem to always be on the perimeter of the action, looking inward at it but not actually jumping into it. I say I wish this were much simpler but, if it were, would that mean that our feelings were not true? I have dated other people and if I didn't want to see them, it was very simple, I just didn't. I didn't talk to them, and it bothered me not one bit. But with him, it's a totally different thing. Until last week, we haven't spoken to one another in like over a month but, it's so easy to just fall back into talking regularly. We both pick up our roles and go with it, simply, with so much ease. I wish we could get together like that, I wish it weren't such a task.